The Beginning of My Journey – The Need to Find My Own Truth
I’ve always had a strong inner drive to find my own truth and to truly live my life. It felt like an inner calling that wouldn’t leave me alone. That’s why, back in Poland, as a poor student, I decided to join group therapy — it was all I could afford at the time. When I moved to the UK, I felt once again that I needed support. I started individual therapy, which didn’t continue, but through a recommendation I eventually found my way to Regina. I began working with her without really knowing what to expect. Yet I knew one thing: my inner desire for self-understanding was stronger than fear or uncertainty. And that desire guided me forward.
Fear as My Everyday Reality and Emotional Starting Point
When I began therapy, my emotional state was extremely unstable, almost childlike. I didn’t understand what was happening inside me — my emotions completely controlled me. In my old notes, I wrote that “I’m constantly afraid,” that fear was my norm. And it truly was. I would wake up in the morning and literally think I was the worst person in the world. I felt that I should be someone else, that I wasn’t good enough, that something was fundamentally wrong with me. That was my starting point — overwhelming fear, low self-worth, and an attachment style that made me react like a frightened child. A lot of shame, a lot of chaos, and the feeling that I had no control over my inner world.
A Spiral Process of Change and Returning at a Higher Level
I see my work with Regina as a spiral. I return to similar themes, but each time I’m in a different place — with new awareness and new resources. The pandemic, for example, triggered a lot of fear in me again, but it was a different kind of fear — more existential, the kind many of us were experiencing then. The difference was that this fear didn’t overwhelm me the way it once did. Over time, I began to notice that I could hold much more balance within myself. My emotions still show up — I still feel fear, anxiety, a whole palette of feelings — but they no longer knock me off center. I’m able to move through their cycle, connect with what I feel, without panicking or losing my grounding. For me, that is the huge difference between who I used to be and who I am today.
Trusting the Process Despite My Analytical Mind
I’m a chemist by education. I have a very logical, analytical mind. And to this day, I can’t rationally explain how Regina does what she does — yet I know it works. I know it because over the years I’ve experienced profound change. With time, I learned to let go of the need to control and understand everything. I discovered that the most important thing is to trust the process — to trust that life can lead me out of even the darkest tunnel. This was one of the biggest challenges for me: allowing myself to trust something I can’t logically explain, but that I deeply feel is guiding me.
Rebuilding My Sense of Worth and Learning Boundaries Through the Body
I came to Regina convinced that everyone else was right — except me. That I had to adapt, comply, and avoid causing problems. My sense of self-worth was very low. Today, I’m in a different place — still not where I ultimately want to be, but much further than I once was. I’ve learned to listen to the signals in my body. If it tightens, if anger appears, if I feel discomfort, I know my boundaries have been crossed. My body tells me this more clearly than my mind. And more and more often, I’m able to respond to it rather than ignore it. I’m still learning this skill. The current difficult situation with my flatmate shows it clearly — her dependence on me and her attempts to hold on to me trigger my old relational patterns with my grandmother and my first girlfriend. But now I can see it, and I know this is a lesson in boundaries and self-determination. I’m still on a spiral of growth, but simply being able to see it is already a change.
A Relationship That Grounded Me and Taught Me That I’m OK
What I value most in Regina is that she doesn’t sugarcoat things with me. If I say something completely off, she tells me straight to my face. If there’s something I need to see but I’m avoiding it, she names it. And at the same time, she does it with incredible sensitivity. She speaks up only when I’m ready to hold it — never too early, never in a way that would break me. She doesn’t coddle me or offer false comfort. Instead, she shows me where something is waiting to be discovered, and she does it with great love while staying firmly grounded. As a Pisces, I tend to drift away — she brings me back. If I had to sum up our entire relationship in one sentence, I would say that Regina taught me that I’m OK. And the most important thing I can tell anyone beginning their own process is this: come with an open mind, trust the journey, and truly be willing to do the work. Without that willingness, I wouldn’t have gotten anywhere.
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